My reflection on Raja Gidh

Devangi..a term, which we often use for those who are out of their senses / who are insane. Another meaning, which I personally feel, is the restlessness of human mind. (In our society, the meaning of Devangi has slight negative connotation).

Few months back I started reading a book– Raja Gidh written by Bano Gudsia. Then onwards, I am thinking on the notion of Devangi, its forms and most importantly its cause. Still I am on the finishing lines of this book but the overall understanding I developed from this book is “Devangi...is a resultant of Ishq-e-la Hasil” (“la hasil” means anything which is not attained / unattainable).

Initially I thought that the idea of Ishq-e-la Hasil could only be correlated with the notion “Ishq-e-Mejazi/Haqiqi”. I limit myself by restricting this notion for those who are unable to attain “the ultimate Ishq” and probably because of which they transcend themselves into the form of Devangi. But now I feel that consciously or unconsciously, Ishq-e-la hasil is associated with everyone’s life. All the restlessness of our mind is because of Ishq-e-la hasil. This restlessness of mind could be in any form…it can be in the form of unanswerable questions related to our self-discovery, self-realization or personal search...

I am reflecting on a question “Does this individual restlessness has any direct or indirect relation with our society? If yes, then, does our societal issues (such as terrorism) can be addressed through this notion?

I personally feel that answers of all these questions lies when we understand that “Hasil is within La-Hasil” (LA ILLA HA IL LAL LA…NO GOD BUT ALLAH… probably resembles the same concept).

Your opinion is needed.

living or lived..??

"Life has it's meaning to be lived and have lots of Interpretations to be made". I understand such kind of perception is very early to be made. So far, life has treated me very well (sukar)..there are lots of happiest moments in my life..I am strong believer of CREATING GOOD MOMENTS in life in order to cheer them with joy and satisfaction.

When I looked back there are many "closed spots". These closed spots are nothing but some of my futile moments in life (I respect these moments with fullest of my heart). Consciously or unconsciously I tried my level best to open these spots. You have to believe me that I was very honest with myself and I wanted to get them opened. During this process, life educated me that at times we need to be very very quick while taking decisions (with out fear of getting failed), when nothing could be done, just apply double "P" formula-either have Patience or just Pray, need to be brave to take the ownership and have faith.

Initially I constructed understanding towards life that "luck always support PLANNED MIND" and with the passage of time this understanding/perception has converted into faith. The way we live our life- it is planned and it execute, as it need to be executed-so just relax.

Razi

Why...Tashveesh-e-Khudi

Today in my ARE class, we had a discussion re: "predictions within Ginan". While discussing, one of my friend rizwan said that there was a time when Internet was in few hands (some people create and rest of them are just on the receiving end) but now the time has changed. Anyone can create/write and publish his/her view point through blogging. Then and there I decided, why not my own blog :).

It's been one and half month, my mind is upset. This disturbance of mind started when I started studying Sufism-as a discipline. I studied world-view presented by different Sufis through their poetry. Most of the Sufis had a common viewpoint. According to them-its all about "Oneness/Unity" rest of the things are just "calculations". My mind, my soul, my body, my affection, my restlessness, my thoughts, my desires..every things come to an end when I will start searching for my own self (tashveesh). Concept of Tashveesh -e-Khudi is not something new-I just imitated it. But on the another hand, I am strong believer of it.

Razi